Walk Away

2009-07-26T23:43:00.001+08:00

switching to livejournal for the time being.

2009-07-19T23:16:00.004+08:00

Met up with Yanling and went bugis today to watch Harry Potter and the Half blood price.

Overall, think the story is boring compared to the past 5 stories.. we finish our popcorn combo in the first hour of the show!

shop around bugis Junction and bugis street. Lunch at Iluma.The Asian kitchen.

The cereal prawn is so not worth it. -__- other then that, think the rest is ok.. I like their service, but their food is still, average. Had the pork chop fried rice while yanling had the chicken chop noodle.. mango sago for dessert~

Walked to suntec, went to buy auntie Anne's cinimon sugar pretzel.. and that concludes my dinner for the day!

Tml~ culinary UT2 review
Tuesday~ Culinary UT2 and thats the end of Ut2~!!

2009-07-15T14:15:00.003+08:00

Someday I'll just break down.

Everything's changing. People. Friends.

2009-07-14T21:47:00.003+08:00

I need to have my laughter back.
Once again, I suddenly feel so empty recently.
School's been a drag.

School events to be resume next week I guess. And I'll presume it would be a busy period again. But then, I just felt so empty though there arent any reason that could make me feel sad.

UT 1 results out. totally did badly. esp culinary. Hit the lowest in my entire grades.

Can someone colour up my life?

2009-07-11T16:34:00.007+08:00

Forgot to bring my hp to school yesterday!! And I feel weird without my hp. though there wasnt any msg sent besides marisa, but I stil feel weird! but on the other hand, it just feels like no one is able to contact me and I didnt have to bother checking my phone if theres any msg. even my parents cant contact me as well.zz.

after school, headed down to Kallang along with Marisa, Hui Loon, Shing Ling and Jinxiang. steamboat for dinner! we went to this Maifan Stone Healthy Steam Boat. whereby the pot for steamboat is made of stone.. reasonable price. and we had lots of fun there =X

then headed down to geylang for durians. and we was in formal wear -_-

10 durians in total among the 5 of us.

yet another weeked past. Have to start revising for marketing UT since I did badly in UT 1..zz

2009-07-06T08:46:00.003+08:00

Sat (4th July)

Joyce (Jie) & Daniel wedding celebrations at U.Me@Indus. Met up with Jd & Jonson before going there. Stayed there till around 5+ to 6pm. Wish the newly wedded to have a blissful marriage.

After that, headed separate ways with the rest. Went to Suntec with Jonson while the rest went Marina Square/Bugis. New York New York for dinner. Watched Ice Age 3. The movie was nice.. laughed all the way throughout the entire show. thanks Jonson for the movie and dinner treat.

Oh, we walked past the pet shop.. till we found this 'rat' which actually cost $35 each. and the sales person say this kind must at least get a pair. Imagine buying $70 for 2 rats.. the hamsters was cute!

Its youth day today! but still schooling as per normal.

HTM UT Tml!

2009-07-03T20:58:00.005+08:00

Everyday now, I feel like I'm dragging myself to school. No longer do I have the motivation to attend school already. I don't know what got me into this. The thought of skipping school always come to my mind. But I didnt really skip this semester. Except 3 marketing modules. Which I was sick. For the 3 same days !!! And partial-ed CRM module that 1 day.thats it.

H1N1 case in school is shooting up like crazy. Initally, E6 was the last block left. Now, all blocks are already infected. Current case is 95 now. And the school decides not to suspense RP classes. Great. I'm already mentally prepared to get h1n1 in school. And I think everyone who still attend class right now will already have this mindset.

Only when the case hit up to 95, the school is starting to get all the measures ready. Time zoning. Canteen zoning. Its already pointless to me. Instead, everyone is feeling so restricted. But cant help it either.zz.

Reaching home early this week as well.. since currently, all IG activities ceased.

On the other hand, watch transformer with dad and bro. Dinner at crystal Jade restaurant. while mum just got back from Bintan.

PS: Stomach cramps is driving me crazy this 3 days.argh.

2009-06-26T17:34:00.001+08:00

Back to school on monday.

2009-06-25T21:57:00.002+08:00

Been given LOA ( Leave Of Absense). for the next one week in school.

Reason being there are DHHM student who got the h1n1 virus. Ended up, the entire DHHM students just got quarantined. And we just left class before the start of meeting 2.

Head over to Bernard's place along with remaining 9 of my classmates.. and just slacked there till around 4 before meeting up with yanling to go home together.

Dinner with yanling at bedok inter..

So not looking forward to E learning~

2009-06-22T14:32:00.002+08:00

Skipped school today.

Have not been feeling well. For the 3rd day and counting.zz. Flu + headache is enough to drain me out. Even felt dizzy halfway through while cooking my lunch.

And I realise for the 2nd time I skipped school, its marketing module AGAIN.

I dono wads wrong with me. hopefully it will get better soon. Oh..and..there's 2 confirm cases in school having H1N1!

Happy Father's Day Daddy!!

2009-06-20T16:49:00.002+08:00

Finally a week over from school! I just don't have the mood for school this week! Especially when UT results are out.. oh yes. I got a D+ for Room Division UT! Its like.. the entire cohort didnt do well. argh. Now here I am worrying about Culinary UT cause I know I'll flunk that as well.

Dinner with Yanling at 85 market on wednesday. Both of us only but we ordered lots of stuff.. hahaha. Met up with Shu Ling for awhile before going to the comics shop that she was working there.

Thursday CRM module. Left halfway through together with Wei Ling, Christina, Andre and Bernard. Oh ya.. our entire team just left like that. Headed J8 with them and Bernard's place again. But I just stone there while watching them playing rockband since I was so tired. Its a lucky thing I still get a grade C that day since it has been my standard grade.zz.

I just realise I just cant stay still watching a movie online. I seldom watch movies in cinema since most of the time I just feel its a waste of time, so I'll just stick to watching it online.Just as I was watching Ghost of the Girlfriend Past.. I just close off the entire link after 20 mins since I dont really have the mood to watch.zz.

Seriously, I dont want sch to reopen!

2009-06-15T20:45:00.005+08:00

I don't know why I'm feeling so down today.

First day of school and I'm having Monday Blues. To add on, unstable internet connection in school plus marketing module just made me feel more irritated.

End result? Stone-ed in class without participating much. At the end of the day, I dont even understand what was going on in class today.

HTM and CRM UT results are out. I thought I was confident of HTM UT. But I got a C in the end. As for CRM, I thought most probably its gone case since I dont really know how to answer most of the questions, but I got a B+ in it.surprisingly, how irony is that?

Its Culinary UT tml and I have no mood to study at all.

Why am I always getting used to be close to some people, yet at the end.. it always drift us apart without much of a warning. Why cant a close friendship just stay? so many times it happen, and still, its on the repeating mode. Why am I so easily affected by all these 'close friendships?' when they might not even value that in the first place.

2009-06-14T15:06:00.003+08:00

Out with Yanling on friday. Raffles city + J8 + AMK Hub.. conclusion is still, nothing much to shop. Bought a personalized book mark along with yanling, since I lost mine in which my mum gave me once.. Sakae sushi after that. that's gonna be my last time dining at sakae sushi for J8 outlet.. since the food are either out of stock/tasteless.zzz.

Shine Youth Festival briefing yesterday. after that accompanied Jolin to J8 to get something again..

Its school reopen tml.And I haven studied for my Culinary UT. To add on, I cant get into LEO system to download my 6Ps.. zz.

World Vision 30Hour Famine Camp BBQ for volunteer on 26th.. should I go? seems like no time.. unless I rush there after school. But there is the shine youth event the next day and I have to report 9+am at orchard.zzz.

I realise I've been spending alot till my bank a/c is almost draining out. Have to save my spending..zz.But I wanna get hold of my running shoes and FBT shorts first.. and- I swear to cut down on fast food..zz.

2009-06-11T15:10:00.003+08:00

Got myself another book to read..

Guess I shall forget about Marley and Me and continue reading this series..

School's reopening soon!

On another side note,
Happy 19th Birthday to Felicia!!!!

I know we arent meeting that often as compared to last semester year.but you ought to know that you'll still be one of my dearest gal I met in school =) Meetup with you again to celebrate your birthday when school reopens! Do hope you enjoy your day and take care!

2009-06-09T19:10:00.004+08:00

I thought this could be a smooth week.
I'm sorry to see that I have disappointed you, again.
I know I can't have the best of everything,in anyway.

On the other hand, I treat everyone as friends, no matter what happens.
I don't know why things became so complicated.
I don't know why, at this time, your jealousy still stays.

Stop bringing up the past,

I cant take it anymore.
Anyway, thanks Jack and Justin for talking to me when I feel down.

Emotions have been on a roller coaster ride..

I can, I will, Make a difference!

2009-06-07T14:35:00.007+08:00

Famine Camp 2009 officially ended!!

This year, the theme was "I can. I will. Make a Difference." Held at ACS Barker.

Facilitating the family 'NABONGO' this time round under the country 'LESOTHO'. It has been fun knowing them even though half of the time I would always have missing members.. hahaha. Watching them playing games, attending workshops, getting to experience the 30 hour of ~~starving~~ fasting.

Met up with Theara- the 11 year old boy with HIV. He shares with the rest of the camper on his experience as an HIV Positive child in Cambodia. Through all the roleplay and stimulations, we got to know more about Poverty issues happening around the world. and how it affects the children, especially to those that have HIV.

It just allow us to know how fortunate we are compared to the 3rd world countries. Some of us might have taken for granted the education we have now, and also few of us here are suffering from poverty . But to those in the 3rd world countries, education is considered a luxury for them. because many families are forced to send their children to work instead of school to support their family income.

Going through reflection walks, it show us the real issues of poverty happening around. And it definitely made me reflect through alot of things.

The next day, Newspaper collection at Tampiness. Pretty glad my team members could still survive this newspaper collection despite them being tired and hungry. Head back to ACS, major clean up and we did the cheer among all the 8 countries. And.. Lesotho have the best cheer out of the rest! yeahness! For the children, we will make it!

Famine Camp Concert at downtown east after that. And Ah-Mei was there as the ambassador for world vision. Her vocals are superb! Break fast at 8pm. Nasi Lemak was what we have for the break fast! Met up with Family 'Xavier' After that! headed Ehub to slack awhile before going back home.. But by then, I wasnt feeling too well..gahh..

Anyway, some pics of the concert. Didnt manage to take pics for the events in ACS since I couldnt use much of my hp.

Famine Camp 2010. Anyone? =X

2009-06-04T21:57:00.001+08:00

Bought quite a few things today. Dad paid for my new wallet while mum paid for my top and skirt.. =D

Advance bday celebration for mum's bday. Subway for lunch, Swensen for dinner.

Its famine camp tml!!!

Help to fill up the ricebowl to save the needy children!
https://www.worldvision.org.sg/30hourfamine/camper.aspx?id=898

2009-06-03T17:09:00.005+08:00

Its the 2 weeks holidays!!
But doesnt seem like a holiday at all~

welcome tea last week was a success! well, sorta.. though everything was chaotic and stuff.. at least the event has been over. Vincent doing sushi, e rest doing their caramel + chocolate + peanut butter milkshake.

Marketing UT on Thurs. Cust R/s management UT on Friday. And I direct cui for that.. Besides that, Hotel Site Inspection with E66R in FairMont Hotel. Will get pics if possible from e rest later..

Sunday was E66R Stayover at Bernard's place! while others was in the pool.. me and mun yee went to play rockband =X continued with the rest.. I was so engrossed with the drums! and this shows that I cant play the guitar well! Played till around 5AM. watched Kung Fu Panda halfway through. and fall asleep at 6am.

Woke up at 8+ AM.. then breakfast with them. Headed down to school with Mun Yee and Rachel. Went to find Mrs Ezal with Mun Yee and went over to the Raffles sch of hospitality to clean the training room. We watch the tv while cleaning the room =X End at around 4+pm then went back home.

Yesterday,

Culinary outing with a few people.. Food chain event! went to the few places.. Woodland causeway point, Yishun, AMK Hub, Orchard, Dhoby Gaut, Suntec fountain of wealth, Bugis Junction.

I think this team was really budget enough.. to spend only around $10+ for the whole event while the other team overspend their $40! hahaha.

After the event, headed to the arcade with Jia Jin, Jun Liang, Vincent, Eugene and Wei Quan. we played the spot the difference machine! then dinner with them at Billy Bombers. reach home at 8pm!

Next up event..celebrating mum's advance bday tml.
famine camp on friday and sat..

2009-05-26T22:47:00.000+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday to Jia Jin!!!

I Nearly left my laptop in the toilet today. Lucky the toilet aunty was there and reminded me about my laptop when I was about to leave.zzz.

After capella sharing session, went to food lab to have the meeting for tml's welcome tea. Next, celebrated Jia Jin's bday in food lab. dinner with some of them in causeway point mac before heading home.

2009-05-25T12:25:00.005+08:00

Didnt went to school today.
Migraine is killing me.
But still, I have to go back to school later for rehearsal.

Suddenly felt that I was so alone,
with no one around to concern.
It made me thought of you,
your hugs and everything.

But I know no matter what happens,
things would be unchangable.

I'm just sick of everything,
sick of someone who used to be close with me,
becoming distant strangers.
Or someone who has the close friendship with me once,
becoming distant friends,
whom we now are like hi-bye friends.

Maintaining a friendship is difficult.
Some who has new friends would forget the old.
Some who leave a footprint in ur life, would just leave u 1 day.
Some, because of a few misunderstandings, lost this friendships forever.

It just made me wonder, how long can a strong friendship stay?
Or rather, how can someone actually make this friendship stay lasting..

I'm sick of all these..

2009-05-24T13:08:00.006+08:00

Happy belated birthday to Justina and Jun Liang!

things have been busy over the week. Apologize to Justina since I didnt went to her birthday chalet. I'm gonna be so dead for the 2 UTs. Especially when the UT system in school crash, all of us had to use paper to write for our UTs. and my answers were like structure essay.. No time to finish all and I just scribble through. I cant even figure out my handwritings.

Friday was class outing again. Some of us headed Fish and Co while the rest headed to somewhere else.

After wards, went over to Minds Cafe..

Yesterday.. Famine camp prerun at ACS. wont mention much about it.. just the overview and some games for the actual day. Was allocated to Group 'Xavier' for the day.. kind of fun with all the new people that I knew of..

Next week... Capella sharing session prerun, actual day for the talk, culinary IG welcome tea, 2 more UTs, site inspection for hotel visit... before the start of holiday!

2009-05-16T19:36:00.002+08:00

Its crystal 2nd birthday today!!

Times since to fly so fast.. she's been with us for 1 year and 8 months already. From the puppy who always bites me or the things around the house.. and still continue biting the things around today.. the lucky thing is she dont bite me already.. yeah!

On another side note.. what is with this damm quarrel?! all I just want is at least a normal friendship after all these.. and whats with your attitude towards me these days?

2009-05-14T22:14:00.003+08:00

Interesting facts I know after today's CRM class..

Like all we know, he is the commonly known Hong Kong Actor Adam Cheng.

"It is observed that whenever the Hong Kong actor Adam Cheng stars in a new television show, there is a sudden and unexplained drop in the market."

"The Ding Hai effect has led to Adam Cheng attracting much press attention. Now, whenever a new show starring Adam Cheng is about to be broadcast, some stockbrokers and investors in Hong Kong become wary, even anticipating a drop in the market."
-Credits from Wiki

Talk about swayness.. seriously, its so coincidence!

Anyway... Happy 19th birthday Si Jie!!!

85 market for dinner with Si Jie, Esmond and Justina.. bought her this mini cake. Its so weird to celebrate bday there!

But anyway.. happy sweet 19th nya nya!!

2009-05-13T22:49:00.001+08:00

The walk back home..
Just made me thought through alot..

If only there wasn't much changes.

2009-05-12T19:41:00.002+08:00

For once I got so pissed off.
though it was no one's fault.

1 word to say... sickening and irresponsible!

I wonder how many people will be left active among us. sigh.

2009-05-09T15:16:00.007+08:00

Wednesday

Class outing with E66R after school to plaza Sing. 14 of us in total. headed pizza hut. after wards shop around and headed starbucks to play some finger games. Few of them got forfeited and it was super funny! cab back with marisa, yongen and Jolin..

Thursday

Was damm tired after school..class ended early for the very first time. But had to stay back to go over to Capella. 7 of us headed back to collect our pay. I nearly fall asleep on the way there! after reaching there, I have to say I still do miss Capella! Suddenly miss working there. Saw Zaiton and Noraini * supervisors of housekeeping dept* Its a lucky thing Fion was on MC. the few of us went to scare Aunty Angela and she got a shock from us =X

Parted of with some of them while me, Si min and Justina(dhhm) went off to vivo Superdog for dinner.. justina took forever to do her rj! reach home at 11pm..

Yesterday

I finally had my first subway meal in school. hahaha! Thanks to YongEn for helping me to order =X

I thought I can go home immed after school. and dad's back to tricking me. thot he will be nice to fetch me home from woodland when he called. in e end he ask me to go tamp. dinner with family at Fish and Co. I had the seafood platter there..

Shopped around and dad's being so childish and funny with his jokes! mum's complaining she spend a bomb on our shopping trip.. haha. bro bought 2 pants, I bought 1 Jeans, 2 spag tops,Majolica Majorca eyeshadow, dad bought a masagging leg thingy... which obviously cost a few hundred bucks..

Reach home at around 9..

Hopefully next week wont be tt busy..

2009-05-05T22:47:00.000+08:00

Carls Jr with Justina after school yesterday at tamp1... Surprising she manage to finish the entire burger!

Today.. early for school yet late for class!! Met up with Marisa at the interchange. But we went to the wrong class after that. And we stone at the class for like 20 mins!! When we went back to our class, its 10.01am. 1 minute late! And there goes my 0.5 grade..

Sadly, still have to do PP after listening to the talk by diploma chair... but will only do PP when we do our IIP. Sem 2 still have to buy uniform.

Culinary meeting after that.

Tomorrow class outing
Thursday going back capella.
And I’m left with Friday.. till another week ends.

2009-05-01T20:17:00.004+08:00

End of SLA Fiesta!

a little break before future culinary events coming up..

Managed to survive the 2nd week of school. But its always reaching home at a later timing and rushing out RJs after reaching home. -___-

Preparation of SLA Fiesta on monday, and reach home like around 10+ on that day.. next was just helping out at the booth for the consecutive 3 days.. congrats to the ig for having so much sign ups.. though dono how many will be active =X

Finally a holiday today, and I'm falling sick again.zz. I always seem to fall sick during holiday period. *though holiday is only a day*

Went tamp with family again. lunch was at Jack's Place. I wonder when can I get tired of tamp..zz.

2 more days of rest to another busy week.

2009-04-25T21:19:00.003+08:00

Starting to feel the stress in year 2.

My lesson's always a drag in class! never once lesson ends on time, some even drag till an hour later till dismissal time and its not the end yet!

1st week of school,
Monday: *Class drag till 5.30* + Culinary meeting
Tuesday: Class, capella meeting + Culinary meeting
Wednesday: Class
Thursday: Class + SOH Talk + Culinary meeting+ settle admin part after reaching home
Friday: Class ( break 2 finally met up with sem 1 classmates- Fel, Tony, Yiheng, Fuzhong n leonard) + headed down to IKEA/Popular to buy culinary things.
Saturday: A day off finally!! but some of them continue to buy ingredients for culinary

Next week will stay back in school from monday to thursday...

SLA Fiesta seriously kills!!!

Almost everyone have like lots of meetings because of this event!!

Pre readings to do in class before every lesson starts.

No more break one.

Shorter break time for break 2. ( renamed study period)

Shorter lunch time with friends and time to do research/PPT

Hopefully no changes will be made for the PP. I dont wanna do PP!!!!!

2009-04-20T23:01:00.003+08:00

First day of school today. wearing formal wear is so weird!

Culinary Science & Kitchen Operations module. suppose to end at 4.15. but we end an hour later than usual.argh! watch glipse of Ratatouile in class today. Learned about history of French Cuisine, and the various stations of french cuisine thingy. Most of us had difficulty making the correct pronounciation. zzz.

Culinary meeting after that. And my heels was killing me.

Tml~ Capella meeting + Culinary meeting.gahh..
Thurs~ Compulsory SOH meeting. Bored to death!

Hopefully tml will be a better day.

2009-04-19T22:40:00.002+08:00

10 weeks of holiday ended. and Its back to school tomorrow!

I want more holidayss!!

PS: 1st day of school and have to wear formal tml!

2009-04-16T23:26:00.003+08:00

Tuesday, lunch with Si Jie and Esmond again. then went Tamp1 with mum. shopped around and treat her pizza hut for dinner..

Watched Fast & Furious 4 today with Dad and bro.. And I'm the only one who didnt watch part 1 to 3.. shall watch the remaining parts when I have the time. I wanna watch part 5 when its out.. Treat dad and bro to Ajisen for dinner.. [Now I'm done with their treat, and officially broke!]

After that, met up with Esmond.. I have to wait for him for like nearly to 30mins! went to Frolick at Tamp1 then shopped around there and went back home..

few more days to school reopening! half of me dread for school to reopen.. I want holidays to be longer~~

2009-04-14T13:17:00.003+08:00

Met up with Esmond and Si Jie yesterday.

Headed Tamp1 to Chinatown. went YumCha for Dimsum.. yesterday was feeling so banana tree.. because I was wearing a yellow top while both Esmond and Si Jie wore bright green!

Afterwards headed Iluma at bugis, then shopped around bugis junction.. bought a skirt and coat there.

reach home nearly to 10pm~

1 more week till school reopen!

2009-04-10T18:35:00.002+08:00

Went out with Yan Ling to Tampiness 1 today! It is super duper crowded! Especially when its the 2nd day of opening and its still a PH today. But apparently, we skipped going to UNIQULO. because the queue was way too long.

Then went over to Tampiness Mall and Century Square to shop. Bought my heels from Charles n Keith. then bought other clothes from Century Square.. spend close to $200 for today.. Lunch was at Jack's Place! because we had no other option where everywhere seems to be full house..

Gonna go night market later!

2009-04-09T10:55:00.007+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday Esmond!

8th year of friendship and still counting..

Anyway,met up with Esmond to Orchard in the afternoon. and went around window shopping. Suppose to buy his shoes and my heels. But ended up I got nothing cause they don't have the size that I want!

Met up with Justina and Jun Liang later on in the evening. and headed Fish & Co. Dinner was at there.. along with the suppose-to-be bday surprise even though Esmond already realise what will be going on.

After dinner, Headed Mustafa.. I have freaking no idea why they wanna go there.zz..
headed back home at like..11pm.

Next up activity with them will be yum cha + JB trip provided there arent any last minute changes!

1 more week before school reopens.. and I haven got my formal clothes + heels yet! argh!

2009-04-02T19:52:00.010+08:00

3 weeks of capella ended. Though I think I will miss the place there.. but overall, its been a great learning experience. Photos are up in facebook. Wore the uniform in the last day of work. Blahs.. the uniform is size L! and it looks so big on me..

Sunday was out with hi 5 clique in Zoo.It rain halfway through so I didnt get to see some of the animals there.. After Zoo trip, headed on to AMK Hub Anderson's Ice cream shop to celebrate Patsy's 19th Birthday.

Yesterday went to Fish Reflexlogy and Botanic Garden with Si Jie, Esmond and Justina. Si Jie and Justina end up screaming away throughout the whole session. Pictures are all uploaded in facebook.. so can just view everything from there.

Went 85 market with them for dinner including Jia Jin, Jun Liang and Eugene. Seems so long after since I last talked to them.. went back home after that..

2009-03-28T21:16:00.003+08:00

Today gotta be one of the memorable day in capella.. thus, I have an idea of what to write for my RJ already.. !

Early in the morning.. Alex and Clive made the joke out of the walkie already!

*while testing walkie talkies*
Clive : Alex coming over Alex
* walkie no response*
Alex to Clive: Can you wait for the freaking BEEP sound!

and all of us just burst into laughter..

Me,Atiqah and Sykirah clean the manor today! thus during lunch time.. we headed to the ballroom.. and we didnt have any lunch.. instead, the ballroom was turned into clubbing mode.. and we just head on to the dancefloor right in the afternoon for like 2 to 3 hours..got abit too high and Justina ( from DHHM) went to take pics with some random strangers. hahaha!

After that.. we had some further jokes by our typical Singlish in which Martin don't really understand what we talk about with all the 'la' and so on.. and his accent was really funny.. when we talked about our t shirts and I told him the capella tshirt I got was like XS. and its already like a pyjamas.. his reaction was.. ' Holy Crap.. you're so tiny!

well yea.. but I stil think Im fat. -__-

at the least, I have 1 pic which was taken quite some time back.

From left to right: Alex, Si Min, Me, Justina, Nicole, Rachel, Jhomel, Clive

2009-03-21T22:17:00.002+08:00

I know I have been on MIA mode recently.

Work is making me shag. Having to wake up 6am everyday. I slept at 11pm everyday.
Everyday is so routine to me. left my house at 6.30. Reach home around 8pm. social life cut off. Been MIA-ing in msn as well. didnt really contact anyone besides those in capella. Supposely to work till today. But I extend till the end of march. So I'll still be working in Capella at Sentosa now.

Been in housekeeping department. So my job was like to deliver the amenties and things that will be needed to be placed in the hotel rooms and villas. Today was my first day going to villa. and I totally detest it! the slopes is so steep!! And also, to clean up and tidy the hotel rooms.. I know how to do up those beddings already!

At the least, work is still ok.. with all the aunties and everyone else in housekeeping. Besides seeing the mood of 1 of them. I guess, work is still enjoyable.

And.. few weeks back, I applied for CitiBank Credit Card and I finally receive it today!!

Time to control my financial things well..

2009-03-05T23:06:00.002+08:00

Met up with Yanling today.

Headed Bugis. Wanted to mend my shoe.. but the place I went in bugis, have to pay $36 just to mend the strap for my heels! I rather get another shoe then to ask them to fix.zzz.

Ajisen for lunch. then met up with Tony to pass him the passport pic.. shop around bugis street, suntec, marina square.. we got free pop corn at marina square =X And I thought the person who gave me the complimentary pop corn ticket and the info booklet was familar. thought it was Abbas. but not that sure.zz.

Few more days to monday, and my attachment will start !!

2009-03-04T19:48:00.014+08:00

Went out with Esmond, Si Jie and Justina on monday.

Headed CityHall then headed over to Curry Favor Restaurant. 3 set course Lunch..

After our meals.. didnt know where to go. Justina thought of going Art Museum, I thought of going Mint Museum, end up.. we went over to Peranakan Museum.. Admission was $4 for each of us.

Both of them like macham pri sch kids getting chops everytime they walk past..

Know quite alot about the nonya life there. After that, Esmond left while the 3 of us headed over to Suntec. On the way, bump into Johnathan (damai pri. classmate), and saw shu ling, rinna, staphni, and shuk han..

Dinner at Burger King with Justina, Si Jie and Rinna then headed back home.

Today

Went Seoul Garden with Dad and Bro for Lunch.. apparently, that's my 3 meals for the day.

Thought of getting a Debit Card, but called off the idea after that since I have my Nets card..zz. Dad says.. if Mum's application for Citibank credit card is approve.. I can have the supp card.. Hopefully so, but even If I have the supp card, I guess I wont really use it.. sianz..

2009-02-25T19:52:00.002+08:00

Went out with Yanling yesterday.

went TM, Suntec, Marina Square.. guess we wont be going to marina square for quite some time since most shops are close/renovating..zz.

Jack's Place for lunch.. Yummy!

Less than 2 more weeks till working at capella.zzz.

2009-02-23T12:07:00.003+08:00

GPA results for whole of academic year 1 is out. and my freaking GPA drop!!

(click to enlarge)

From 3.2 to 3.05.. and its mainly because of science grades.. screw science.zz. Best thing is not to see Dorcas anymore! I'm so gonna tio nag by relatives soon..

2009-02-21T22:17:00.001+08:00

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2009-02-19T23:06:00.002+08:00

work in Inter-Continental hotel yesterday for banquet along with Justina.

Met up with Tony then went over to prepare.. saw Jia Jin there. he was attending the dinner while I'm suppose to work there for the dinner.zz. So.. while he was eating the 8 course dinner.. I was busy throughout the dinner!!

Knew some people from there.. its seriously tiring for me- to be exact. tiring for my hands..zz. work from 5-11pm.. then met up with Jia Jin and Justina after that..

Mac was our dinner cum supper.. then went back home. reach home around 1am.

Today, met up with yanling at mac.. 6 times of mac in a row..zz. sick of it!

2009-02-17T14:23:00.002+08:00

Met up with Hui Loon and Jessie at woodland again.. mac for breakfast.. ate mac for breakfast thrice in a straight row..zz.

Went to school for interview.. just as we went into the waiting room, we asked a guy on what is his questions.. and most of us were stun by the 1st question.

" what do you know about capella hotel?"

zzz.. so, while waiting.. read the book of breaking dawn. Jessie was first to interview among us, after that me, then huiloon, then gerald..zz. go to sch need 1 hr of journey yet interview 5mins only!

dono if we can get admitted to this or not.. though chances not high. since they only select 12 students out of it. to work part time/ consider it as an attachment to preopening of capella hotel in Sentosa. working under room division to set up guest room..

reach home 1pm..

2009-02-16T21:22:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 6.15am today.zzz.

took bus to woodland, but this time, I didnt fall asleep for the whole journey! read Eclipse instead. and I took the wrong bus while waiting.. suppose to go aquarius bus stop, mistaken 65 for 60. so took bus at bedok inter.zz.

met up with Jessie at 8am. mac for breakfast. then went to meet gerald and huiloon before walking to school tgt.

makeup workshop by body shop today.
learn quite alot from them.. but before that, I nearly fall asleep when they talk about body shop history and stuff... lasted from 9am-1pm.

then headed for grooming workshop.. seriously, lots of things to buy to prepare for school. have to wear formal for 2 out of 5 days.. including make up, stockings, heels,etc.. so many things to look out for! remaining 3 out of 5 days is casual.. but I heard. no shorts? zzz.

things to buy before school start:
- make up stuff
- heels
- formal wear
- hair accessories
- new bag

one happy thing is.. No PP for us! yeah!!! was super happy over it.zzz.

end everything at 3.30.. walk around causeway point with jessie and huiloon.. bought a concealer for myself.. and went back home.. reach home at 6! zzz.

2009-02-15T11:48:00.006+08:00

Finally got the whole twilight series already. currently reading the 3rd book.. many people have been asking me what I was doing for the whole holiday.. and obviously, reading is one of the things I do. and seriously, my parents don really like me to read, you know? they always say its wasting money.blablabla. Its already in the middle week of Feb and I haven found any job. constant nagging from parents.

And of course, to felicia, I think Im could also join the 'lazy company private limited' already. hahaha. twilight saga got hooked on to me was because of this character call bella. I guess many others would envy this character. since to me, true love is really hard to find. oh well, I guess it wont be applicable to me. only in fantasy and fairyland.zz.

How I wish school will start now, at least there's something better to do. though I do get sick of presentations and totally detest 1st day of school because its another 24 unfamilar face. but its better than working I guess?

PS: thanks to yanling for the valentine's day chocolate. you never failed to give me valentine day gifts every year. haha.

It was sweet of her to write a message on the box cover which states:

To Jaz,
Happy V-Day! Know you are bored & stuff, but do plz try to sleep earlier so you can wake up earlier. you like a night owl now. Hope you manage to find a job soon! :) chat with you longer after my exam okay? xD
From Ylinggs..

Thanks yan ling!

2009-02-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

Valentine's Day today..

Met up with Jia Jin and headed Toa Payoh to find Justina. before that went to mac for some snacks cause I was seriously hungry.. then after her piano lesson, headed over to swensen. Ate our dinner at there.. supposely 4 of us meet.. but ended up became 3.

after dinner, went over to clarke quay. walked around there.. wanted to go pubs but in the end didnt went.. just went over to cheers to buy drinks.. and the sales person didnt check my I/C!! hahaha! ok,wadever, I know I can buy legally already.zz.

All pictures taken by Jia Jin. The reason being I uploaded the dark pic taken with him instead of the one in flash, was because my face was really red.. And I only drink barcadi! wth! both of them drink beer but they still look normal!

PS: there's this pic where Justina and Jia Jin took alot of times.. is becaue of the many random things popping pass their head =X

PS: I miss Fel Fel to bits!! Hahaha! Fel, you gonna laugh while reading this right =X

2009-02-12T23:06:00.003+08:00

Wednesday, meet up with Jason and Justina. Then went back to Damai after that.. Have our lunch in school and talked to Ms Tan and Mrs Lam. Cracked some jokes there.. though I guess it was, the last day of having these jokes.. blahs. Whatever. Headed over to petal Mac and went back home.

Today, met up with Justina and Jie Hao. At mac again..zz. I guess its been like.. around 9 mths since I met up with Jie Hao. Haha! And I claim his getting fatter when he claims he slim down . Thanks for the meal and ice cream treat ! And hor.. your chinese.. 1 year back cmi.. 1 year later still the same =D

A new start, a new beginning.
Time to forget all those r/s stuff that has been bothering me.

2 more days to valentine.. another lonely day.

2009-02-10T15:47:00.003+08:00

My emotions have been on a roller coaster ride recently.
For, I don't know what reasons.

Just don't know why I felt so pissed off yesterday.
just felt that I lost something.
And I don't know where to vent my anger at,
so, it was all vent out on yesterday's arcade.

Maybe I was too over-sensitive over that invisible barrier between me and someone.
Maybe I was being too over- petty to Jia Jin.
Maybe I shouldnt even felt pissed off over yesterday's trip.

Maybe, being alone sometimes do help.
Sorry to Justina and Jia Jin for the moodswing I shown yesterday.
And, thanks to Jia Jin for talking to me over the phone till like 3+am.

The cut on my hand will remind me of yesterday..zzz

2009-02-09T23:52:00.003+08:00

Apparently, I don't know if its the right day to go out today.

Was feeling sleepy when I woke up since I slept after 4.30am yesterday. Met up with Justina to find jobs around tamp. And then, headed over to bugis to find Jun liang, Jia Jin, Fu Chen.. unhappy stuff start to happen after that.

so we went our separate ways.. went shopping with Justina alone in bugis. after that, we headed to the arcade. decide to vent our anger by playing some shooting ball game.. then after, we played some so call jamming thingy. and I spend 6 tokens on that because I keep losing to Justina! the guys came over.. and we played basketball game in the arcade. Instead, Justina got hit by the basketball, right smack at her eye..zz. talking about swayness today.. she spill her drink also. -__-

headed oppo the central for dinner.

went back home after that.

I'm sorry for today,
if its the fact that I walked off right after seeing you guys.
And being moody after that on our way for dinner.
But you guys should realise one thing after this,
that I'm easily affected by other's moodswing.

I read the archive of this blog,
surprisingly, it brought a smile to me.
but I know, some happy times wont be back again.

2009-02-08T14:59:00.003+08:00

I got a feeling one side of my eye is swollen right now.
But when I see the mirror, it looks normal..
Crap.
Steamboat with the usuals was nice.. our sort of..reunion dinner for the year? with Si Jie, Esmond, Justina, Jia Jin and Jun Liang.. it was at bugis.. halfway through, esmond left first.. so the 5 of us headed to parco bugis junction to get Ice cream. 5 person sharing a cup of 3 flavoured ice cream.. trained home after that.

And..I completed reading New Moon within 2-3 days. gahh. I wanna read Eclipse and Breaking Dawn!

Don't wanna mention anything regarding r/s for now..

2009-02-06T16:07:00.002+08:00

Time Passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does.

Even for me.

*Extract from New Moon*

Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget.

2009-02-04T00:40:00.002+08:00

Random thoughts just came pass me..
And I was just in a daze.
without thinking through deeply.
I don't even know what I'm thinking..
and what I really want.

All I know is,
this feeling is terrible.

A sense of Emptiness.

2009-02-01T21:35:00.004+08:00

Went to Justina house along with Jun Liang and Jia Jin today.

Suppose to go each of our house to bai nian but decided to only go Justina's place..

Her mum cooked lunch for us.

We suddenly talked abt babies since Geraine was there. and they happily said abt my 'jiu wo' and stuff..zz.

played Dai Di.. its like so FINALLY when I know how to play this game..considering e previous time, Yanling and peiyan taught me until they wanna vomit blood. This time, Jia Jin and Jun Liang also wanted to vomit blood le ba =X I keep asking him if I can throw the no. 2 each time when its my turn.. *even when I have the best cards.. I have no idea how to play* -__-

went back home around 4+.. and thats all for the day =X

2009-01-29T23:16:00.003+08:00

Met up with Justina and Jun Liang today.

Went to Far East Plaza to have dessert at Slice.

hmm.camera shy arh..

then shopped around there..saw some clothes that I like but didnt buy.zz. Jia Jin came to meet us halfway after that.. then walked over to wheelock place. to have Sakae Sushi.

I guess it would be some time after to step into sakae again. we eat until super full.. until Im abit bored of their food since we keep ordering the same thing over and over again. shopped around cenileisure and plaza sing after that. then went back home.. was super tired after reaching home even though its around 8.45pm.zz

If you think I treat you as 'cao'..
then whats there more to say?
I didnt treat you as a tool before, seriously.
Just because you can't answer to your relatives about r/s matters..
you cant blame me in that, right?
If you just bother about your 'face'
then nothing more to say already.

2009-01-28T23:43:00.004+08:00

Back for some update..

Eve of CNY..
Reunion dinner as usual.. along with grandpa.. Nothing much to say except that I really like steamboat =X.

1st day of CNY..
While others went over to bai nian.. stayed at home instead since both parents are working. Uncle charlie and his family came over in the evening. And as usual.. he and his wife keep on argueing right in front of us -__-

2nd day CNY..
headed over to Aunt Linda's place.. stayed for quite long.. with all the CNY goodies.. then went over to Paternal grandpa's place. got hooked on the tv there.. after that, went over to maternal grandparents' place.. seeing all my cousins. but I couldnt recognize some of them at 1st. -_- PS: I was never close to my cousins. since we met like only once or twice per year..

Went back home.. then in the evening. went over to some country club at the east side.. to have dinner at some restaurant there. with all my maternal side relatives. Uncle booked 4 tables.. 7 course dish.. some peach bun, yusheng, prawn, some abalone thingy, noodle, n I forgot the rest. not much to my liking.. with red wine as well.. took pics with some cousins.. then went back home.

3rd day CNY (today)
woke up around 1pm.zz. slack at home as usual.. met up with Jia Jin for lunch at Mac. actually.. is he see me eat.zz. then went back home. Jason came up to my house in the afternoon to bai nian.. and that sums up my day.

Tml ~ going out with Justina and Jun Liang..

2009-01-24T20:13:00.004+08:00

Mum bought me a cute bag yesterday!! was kinda surprise by it.. haha.

Met up with Yan Ling today!

Went over to the usual place.. bugis. to look for her book. Since we cant find any, walked over to Suntec.. Lunch at Just Acia again. Since I'm on a budget again! *Broke* so.. we went over to Harris/Popular bookstore at suntec..

And.. we spend most of the time at the bookstore,seriously. Looking for her book is so difficult! But those who knows me well know I wont exit the bookstore so short too =X so.. while she spend her time looking for her book . I went over to read some of the books too.. And giving her quiz to test her knowledge =X

Finally bought Twilight book! 1 down, 3 more to go..

Thanks yanling for helping me do the french manicure! =X

2009-01-23T22:29:00.004+08:00

Last day of school today. which means, its the last day of being in class E36Q. A sudden thought about it.. I was not really close to these classmates as compared to W16J in semester 1. In fact, Im used to spend most of my breakout times with felicia and some w16J classmates and thus, I don't really spend much time with this sem classmates except for the last few weeks of school.

This is seriously where time flies, knowing them for 16weeks. they have obviously known me as the quiet gal in class. And to those that knows me well, knows that in fact, I'm actually quite noisy. But nevertheless, I enjoyed the 16weeks with them.. listening to their jokes, having lunch with some of them etc.. It only seem that when I got a little closer to them, its time to change class again. [sickening RP system]

Anyway, soon, its time to make new friends in new class again.. and I shall remember every peeps from W16J and E36Q..! its because of them, that made my RP days a joy.

For the 1st time, I'm late for class. supposely we was early in school. But justina wants to pon 1st meeting.. so we end up having breakfast till around 9.20 ( class start at 9), before walking back to class.

Pon 3rd meeting with some classmates as well. Headed over causeway point along with 9 of them. seoul garden. the 10 of us split into 2 tables.. and seriously, Elmi keep entertaining us. Yea.. he don't store food in his plate. he store food in his mouth. Surprise birthday cake for Ai Tien's advance birthday.. with of cause, lots of laughter and jokes around.. headed back home after that.

2009-01-22T23:03:00.001+08:00

Happy today cause its the end of SCIENCE MODULE!!!!

Don't have to see the irritating DORCAS PAK anymore!

2009-01-21T20:15:00.002+08:00

Happy 5th month. For the last time I'm gonna say. And you're wrong. I do remember the date today. Things would be better in this way. I don't want any more quarrels to happen and then, end things in the very akward way whereby we can't even be friends anymore.

Trust me, that we could still be close friends. As I promised you. Maybe things would be better this way. And that both of us could be happier. I know how much you did for me, even if it meant the big arguement we had yesterday. You even took the effort to travel down to different branches of M)phosis just to find the shoe that I wanted. I know how hard you tried to make me happy. But Im sorry things end this way.

On the last note, don't drink too much alcohol, will you? you will still be one of my closest friend in school..

2009-01-20T21:22:00.005+08:00

I'm really lazy to update....

Last week
~-~-~-~-~
Monday & Wednesday- Swenson Ice cream with him after school
Thursday- After school, headed 85 market with him, Justina and Jun Liang.

Friday- Pon school halfway.. went over to causeway point with Yah Ling, Mindy, Randal, Kenneth, Marcus & Renyi.. watch Red Cliff 2.. kinda nice I guess.. just that I didnt watch part 1 of the show.. after movie, walked back to RP with Yah ling.. went over for L.I.F.E Ce talk with Justina, him and Jun Liang.. kinda inspiring.. made me thought through things..

Dinner with the 3 of them again at Pizza Hut..

The pizza sort of..taste weird to me.zzz.

This week
~-~-~-~-~-~
Sunday- Met up with Justina and Jun Liang.. headed Suntec city.. took ages to decide where to dine for lunch. End up decided eat at Just Noodles/Just Acia.. ate till around 3pm. Free flow of drink + ice cream. Waited till he come... then shop around. went recoil..saw SQ. So chose a shirt 4 him.. walked over to Bugis.. the 3 of them bought their clothes.. and he bought shades for me.. thanks! bus over to bedok inter, dinner there. then went home..

Monday- Pon school. met up with Justina, him and Jun Liang again..zz. gathered over at Justina place till 9+. Supposed to go over to Vivo. but last minute decide to head over Sentosa. 3 out of 4 of us are in the wrong attire.zz. but before that.. we shopped around VivoMart for snacks..

Justina put on Jia Jin's shoe in the last pic.. that explains the big empty gap between her leg and the shoe. haha.Its fun going out with them. Jun Liang and Jia Jin nearly threw me into the sea... zz. we spend our time playing UNO in the shelter -__- headed back Vivo in the afternoon while JL and Justina went back school while I continued shopping with him around vivo..wanted to buy the M)phosis slipper.. but dont have my size!! headed back home after that

Today - Pon school again..zzz. met up with Yan Ling. Some unhappy stuff between me n him which I don wanna say anymore. But I would still remember over this thing.argh. Met up with yanling then headed TM and CS. Wanted to find the M)phosis slipper but still.. cant find. we headed Jack's Place for student meal.. then shopped around looking for shoes. But stil cant find any that I like. Think I'm going CS again to buy the sandal if I still cant find any nice ones.. went over to Petal mac and slacked for a few hours before heading home.. Played her Itouch.. until I keep tilting her Itouch here and there till she @_@. For the 1st time.. I managed to solve Soduko like..finally!!

Tml~ back to school again!

Ps: I bought my organiser..finally!!!

2009-01-11T19:32:00.002+08:00

Apologies to justina for not going to see her performance at..donno where. waterloo street.

Its a sunday and...DAD WOKE ME UP EARLY IN THE MORNING.

Not that early..around 9+. But my usual timing to wake up for weekends is after 12pm.

@#$%^&^%$#$%^&*

Woke up, breakfast, went over to send crystal to cut her ~~hair~~ fur.

Head over to IMM. I bought a top and a simple white dress from those push cart.. for CNY. Wanted the plain white tube dress from Fox de.. but cost $59. so didnt buy.

As usual, dad is the laughing stock for the day..I think he have serious hearing problem. when we say ' Kung Fu Panda'.. words he heard is ' Roti Prata'. When we say 'Esprit', the word he heard is 'Ice cream'.

And since I wanted that dress from Fox. But its a little too ex. he tell me ' Come..lets go Spoon and buy'.. -________-

And..BRO GOT THE SAMSUNG OMNIA! I wanted that phone badly la!!! grrrrr...

Ajisen for lunch. Headed over to some 'Ulu' Place.. where it is the place where people do those 'Tao Ci' and sell.. Some are really nice.. even dad got surprise when he knows I know how to appreciate those stuff.. haha.

Went back home. Start to 'Dao Sao Chu'. But I only cleared and pack my cupboards.. then parents did the rest. Did housework..blablabla. Dad cooked dinner! then.. thats all for my weekend.

I seriously need an organiser if not I'll start to forget things again!
To do list for now ( In case I forgot):
- DHHM Briefing tml
- Get felicia WAY BELATED Xmas present
- Buy a new organiser ASAP
- Get a moisturizer
- Shop for another pair of sandal ( current one spoiling soon)
- Remember to bring calculator for maths UT on tues (impt!!)

Thanks to him for getting me the Bio Essence eye essence!

2009-01-10T15:43:00.004+08:00

1st week of school reopen has been very absent-minded of me.. to sum it up:

Monday (1st day of sch) - Forgot to bring my wallet (only realise it when I reach woodland)and mirror
Tuesday - Forgot to bring calculator for UT
Wednesday - skip this.since I didnt come to school
Thursday - Forgot to bring back home my laptop charger (only realise it at 9+pm when I haven did my RJ and my laptop is going dead soon)
Friday - Its maths lesson.. Forgot to bring calculator. (ended up borrowing from felicia during break 2)

Lesson has been pretty slack for the 1st week of school except maths. We ended at 5pm on a FRIDAY. But as usual..class is full of jokes even though at the end, only 11 people stayed on in class.

Wednesday.. met up with him for breakfast at the hawker nearby my place. Bought old school biscuit. Went to his hse. then met up with Jun Liang & Justina. And we had Lunch at Shoduko.

with justina the odd one out eating her pasta while the 3 of us had soft shell crab pasta. and just to let you know. I was the odd one out that day because the 3 of them wore black t shirts while I wore green.zzz.

And so, walked over to Clarke Quay and headed to Pitstop Cafe. play a few games over there from 2-6pm.

I took the pics that day using his phone. So that explains why you guys don't see my pics. zz. Some games was really nice to play.. We played Imaginiff.. this game is to test how much you know your friends well. Then some spy from some embassy thingy. in which Jun liang kicked him out of the game 1st..

Next was the dog game.. in which Justina killed all my schnauzer using her net. zz. [And Im just short of one more schnauzer to win the game] After that.. we played Cloud 9. In which its a game to see if you trust ur friends or not. By rolling out the dice, the person playing must hand over the card indicated and if you dont have the cards. the hot air balloon will just crash. So you have to decide if you want to drop down the balloon or crash tgt with the driver. and thus, everytime when it comes to my turn.. the 3 of them just want to drop off from the hot air balloon and make me crush alone. =.=

Some other games..I forgotten. But stacko was as usual the game for us again. And justina lost the game =x

2 more weeks to another school holiday..time to find job again..sianz. any lobangs anyone?

2009-01-03T14:48:00.003+08:00

Happy sweet 19th birthday to yanling!

To Jia Jin:
I'm sorry. and thats the only thing I can say to you. but still, thanks for being by my side when I needed someone.

To Jason:
I guess its all back to square one.
Or rather, it has gone far more than I expected.
I didnt know all these could end in just less than a week.
I regretted going out with you on that monday,seriously.
Who knows we still could be friends, or whatever, if we decide not to go out on monday.
I really want to bring myself to hate you, but I cant.
Why is it you have to decide the ending all by urself each time.

One year ago, this happen. and now, it happen again.
Once again, the only solution is for me to go to church again.
As much as I wanted to know how you feel,
who would be there to know how I feel?
for the past 3 days,
I was never happy at all.
Even breaking down yesterday.
And just to let you know, the impact of this,
is way far more than the breakup with you a year ago.
You brought me up so high..
and just threw me down the edge of the cliff.
I have fallen too deep.
You don't know how much you hurt me.
while you can just simply say,
its a mistake to get too close to me.
I was thinking, if its a mistake to talk to you a year back.
You should jolly well know how close we are even though we have already broken up.

You don't reply to my msg..
neither answering my calls.
I suppose its really the end of everything. far more worst than we broke off.
why is history repeating itself again.
cant you remember what you have told me in the past?
and yet, the reasons that you give me now, is the same as one year ago.
and a dumb person like me, only wish to get back this friendship,
even though I knew I would get hurt again.

But still,
thanks for the times,
where you help me with my problems.
where you tried to take care of me when I'm sick.
where you were there when I needed someone to talk to.

Dear God,
You just posted another challenge to me again.
Even though I knew everything is god plan.
and his biggest regret is not to know you more, since he only step into church for the age of 17.
sometimes, I really hated myself.
for devoting too much time on friendships and relationships.
for relying myself onto him.
but I would still pray for him and my friends.
in hoping everything would be alright.
in hoping he can concentrate in his ministry and do what he wants to do.

what is meant to be, will be.
It would be long, before I try to move on with this.
I fallen really deep.
Just for someone close to me.

2009-01-02T23:14:00.003+08:00

I really feel like saying that I really hate you. for the things that you did.
In a whole cycle, everything just repeat what happens a year ago.
And until today, the whole history happens again.
My mood now is just like standing the edge on a cliff.

The starting of a new year.
And yet things arent going well as I thought.
This is the time, where I really want to resist the changes.

2009-01-01T19:08:00.008+08:00

30th Dec

Met up with Yanling. went over to the central.. decide to eat at Billy Bomber to celebrate my 18th bday cum Yl's 19th bday.. the central has really nothing much to walk..zz.

headed over to Orchard. I thought I'm an orchard idiot..didnt expect yanling to be more blur about me. so 2 sotongs walk over to orchard.. and we short of lost our way to where we were walking so we ended up randomly walking instead. we went to far east plaza to this shop call slice.. I like their layered slice ice!! super nice.. haha..

31th Dec

New year's eve! met up with Si Jie, Jun Liang, Jun Liang's fren aka Fu Chen (I ended up calling him Fu Lu Shou cause I keep forgetting his name), and him, at bedok inter.. I was late =X trained down to cityhall..

I wanted to find the Twilight book but none of the bookstores in tamp have it.. went over citylink book store..don have also.grr. headed Raffles city but they only have the paperback edition. I want the hardcover edition.ahh.

Then, met up with Hock Keong + some people from wushu + danny(Justina sem 2 classmate). headed over to marina square for Carls Jr.

see the whole tray of fries..I'm gonna be so afraid of eating fries now. I ended up only eating half of the burger because I was quite full after eating half of it. hahaha. went over to the arcade and rot there since some of the wushu people was playing house of the dead. Jun Liang game over at jamming super fast! haha!

walked over to Marina Bay.. I think we went over at like 8+ or 9+. then we just sat around there..slacked. Played games.. waited for countdown.. the fireworks was really nice! crap around after that.. I pulled Jun Liang's sideburn, kicked Justina leg..and she bite my hand! called Danny “信你是笨蛋" for whatever reasons.. haha.

Didn't really take much pics because most of them forget to bring their camera out. Walked over to Boat Quay after the end of fire works.. Si Jie scare most of us by crying out after that..hope she's alright now. Guess they wanted to head to the pubs after that but the idea was called off in the end. So walked over to Lao Pa Sat. for satays,carrot cakes and desserts after that.

Then around 3am.. went over to UOB Plaza there and sit there till there is the 1st mrt ride.. talked about ghost stories..and some of them were really creepy.. but I guess Fu Chen face can scare off most of the eerie-ness already.zzz. was feeling so damm cold when they talk halfway through~

Reach home around 7am.. the last pics for the day~~

2008-12-31T00:11:00.003+08:00

For once, I thought I-weekly magazine horoscope got quite true..

" 感情方面的问题是再也不能逃避了，还是勇敢地去面对吧”
“ 星期三会对莫些事感到伤心，表现得有点情绪失控。”

updates will continue tml.

2008-12-29T22:00:00.002+08:00

Went to watch Twilight with Jason today. after that, sakae for lunch.. consider as my belated bday treat from him. but..I guess its a wrong choice since he slept halfway through the movie when he wanted to watch the show at first -__- but anyway~ thanks for the treat!

after sakae, walked winter with the leash to toa payoh before heading back home..

I'm sick of quarrels all these while..
really tired of it.
it got me thinking what is the right choice to make..
I know u arent happy.
but I'm also unhappy about how things goes.
its not only about this.
but after 4 mths..
I'm really sick n tired of the quarrels we had.

2008-12-28T19:29:00.003+08:00

Finally legally 18!

Thanks to all for the surprises yesterday and esp thanks to him! and also..thanks to those who smsed/facebook/msn/friendster me sending all those bday wish!

Met up with some of them at Raffles and 2 sotongs actually mistook Raffles mrt as raffles city! lunch was at burger king.. and Justina & co actually took the burger king party hat! headed pitstop cafe..and for the whole 2 hours.we actually only played 5 games!

1st game, we played some bone game.in which we must get a whole set of card and whoever gets the whole set from other players will get the bone which is in the middle of the table. the loser is the one without any bones =X

2nd game. I forgotten. I think it was Jenga. the stacko game. And as usual.. Si jie screamed the loudest!

3rd game. some dwarf game. its kinda boring I think. suppose to build path as a good dwarf. whoever is the saboer dwarf aim is not to let the good dwarf build finish its path.. and I think hock keong is the only bad dwarf =X

4th game. Jun Liang was the host! he is suppose to ask some ridiculous question (eg.how tall is blablabla building/fountain or wadever in the whatever country). and we are suppose to give and estimation of the answer. the closer answer wins some chips!

5th game. the funniest of all! each of us have an animal and deck of cards is being open up one by one by the players. if any 2 cards are the same, the person who have the same cards are suppose to make the opposite player's animal sound.. And I think Im the loser for this game because they can just easily 'meow' and they win while I cant really remember which animal are they.. and u can hear all kinds of animal sounds made by the whole grp of ppl..its super funny ! far too many pics to upload so I combine some of them.

Next, left the rest and went over to marina square and suntec to shop! he bought 2 tops from Cotton on.. while I bought one since it was having a sale.. then both of us headed over to E hub since he said he wanted to take something.. but I realised he wanted to take a bday cake for me! hahaha. head over to pair ris park.. and.. its actually his 2nd surprise in which I found out at the starting of the day.. BBQ till 11+ , packed up, and went home..

Thanks to everyone who accompanied me yesterday- Him, sijie, jun liang,justina,cy,eugune, rosebel,hong yuan & hock keong! and thanks for the presents! will upload the pics soon =X

thanks to him for the anna sui perfume, making plans for the bbq and pitstop cafe!
thanks to sijie and justina for the laptop bag!
thanks to rosebel,hong yuan, hock keong for the hello kitty piggy bank and shrek ears!
thanks to CY for the shawl!

PS: if complain picture too small then refer to my facebook pics..!

2008-12-26T21:31:00.003+08:00

Breakfast with him at mac today.

In the afternoon, went out with some of sem2 classmates.Went over to orchard.. Ceni,Paragon, Hereen.. for the first time, I bought nothing while going out to shop.. Headed Subway to slack while seeing them having their meal since I was full.

And we had Belated Christmas gift exchange.. gave marcus a wallet while I got the perfume from Randal...

Reach home around 8 and going out tml again!

2008-12-25T16:05:00.002+08:00

Didnt really have the xmas mood since was abit sick on xmas eve.. and stayed at home during xmas besides meeting yanling and lianmei for lunch and to pass me some stuff.. thanks to lianmei and yanling for the gift! my second xmas present.. was the hello kitty laptop cooler.. and wallet as my bday present. =X

Another hello kitty item to the collection =X already have some hello kitty tins,jigsaw, speaker,lamp,toys and this time, laptop cooler =X and its super cute!

Merry xmas everyone!

2008-12-22T22:23:00.002+08:00

2nd week of holiday.

I finish watching 法证先锋II

And 3 more episodes to ending of 命中注定我爱你

Met up with Yanling today.and headed the usual places.. TM,Bugis,Suntec, Marina Square.. Spend around $80 + to $90 in just a few hours.. since buying just 4 gifts alone add up to around $70+.totally broke for xmas. Not even to mention, bday. I haven bought my own bday present.zzz. Lunch was at Swensons.. And it just so happen I saw Jing Hui and Randal in bugis..

So tired now since I slept late yesterday..

I don't know what Im thinking of, seriously.

2008-12-17T19:38:00.005+08:00

met up with Jia Jin, Jun Liang, Eugene & Vincent yesterday to TM mac for breakfast. And I didnt realise wenwen was there until she msg me.. but she left before I knew >_<

off to school later. for the bring your kids event.. went to food lab to prepare ingredients and do the icing.. 1st time learning how to do the cupcake icing but the icing came up too hard.. so..kids came, did the cupcakes.. while playing around with the icing. some kids are really funny..

ended around 3pm..rush back home. and off to Justina place.. then met up with Si Jie, Esmond. and went over to Jia Jin & Jun Liang's place.. Went ECP for bbq along with some culinary peeps and Jl's classmates after that.. xmas exchange was funny.. he got a sweet potato for xmas xchange.. while I have a piggy bank bus shaped box with masmellows inside...esmond's dad send us home.. reach home nearly to 1am.

The only ones left after 12am..

2008-12-15T21:57:00.002+08:00

Last min decision to go out today.

Met up with him and went over to TM. pizza hut for lunch. thanks for the treat~
bought xmas present for tml's bbq and bro's bday present.. after which, headed to simei to check grooming price for crystal.. headed bedok and went back home~

seems like a shopping spree for gifts today and I'm broke when I haven shop lots of gifts yet!

2008-12-13T21:27:00.005+08:00

Yesterday

Last day of school! holidays for 3 weeks before being back to school again. but still, pretty busy doing holidays.. 85 with yanling, lian mei and lian na after school. and we ate quite a lot =X

Today
Went marina square for lunch at pariss seafood buffet today! surprisingly dad said I eat more than bro. but blahx.. food there was nice! been super long since I had seafood buffet..

walked around marina square, and I bought a shoe + bag. though kinda regret buy the bag because its damm expensive! $68 for each item. after discount.. $108.. thus, I have only $92 left for my birthday present given by my mum..

But I really like the shoe design.. supposely I just walk out of the shop but dad pull me back to buy both of these.. zzz. treated family Auntie Anne's pretzel after that. walked around suntec and went over to kallang leisure park.

Finally bought yanling's bday gift there thus, one present off the list =X And I realise I'm broke again. argh. went back home after that and that ends off my day with family =X

2008-12-11T23:01:00.003+08:00

Another conflict today. argh.

Pon school halfway.along with rest of the chinese students in class since I had pratically no voice during meeting 2 and thus, expect an F grade from her anyway. Sorry to felicia for not having lunch with her despite she waited for me in break 1 and 2.

So.. all of the chinese students left and headed for bugis. Didnt buy any thing there and I'm still cracking my brain on what to buy for xmas. Headed home after that while some of them went over to vivo.

Dad says no one is allowed to go out on sat because he wants to bring us out for a meal to celebrate bro's and my birthday. And supposely on sat, some classmates plan to go out to vivo but I doubt I can make it. But nvm, I said to go to Pariss International Seafood Buffet Restaurant and they agreed! {hopefully they wont change decision}

85 with yanling and lian tml!

2008-12-09T23:39:00.003+08:00

I suddenly thought of going to lots of places/doing lots of things/getting what I want ..for god-knows-wad-reasons.

- I wanna sit the cable car
- Go to the underwater world
- Go to mindscafe/pitstop cafe with bunch of friends
- shopping with felicia
- out with yanling
- Go to escape
- chalet/bbq with close friends
- Buy Anna Sui Perfume
-Buy more tops
-Pon school just to go shopping
- going shopping for xmas
- time to stop
- enough of D grades for science
- learning how to drive
- go to zoo
-getting in touch with AFS peeps

If only time can be slower..

2008-12-08T14:17:00.002+08:00

straight holidays from sat-mon.. and I'm still falling sick for the 3rd day and counting!

*grumbles*

Skipped shopping with mum on saturday since it was her off day and I was sick. But nvm, she bought me a new bag and brought my fila bag to fix.. Sunday, met up with yl for lunch and my cough became worst. argh..

Its a PH today yet Im rotting at home because of my cough!

Seconday school days.. I'm always sick when exams are approaching..
Poly days.. I'm always sick when holidays are approaching!
@#$%^#@#$%^&*

2008-12-02T23:23:00.002+08:00

Totally dead for communication UT today. And I just got back my science UT2 results.. another D. Argh! I keep getting Ds for UTs and Daily Grades! while the rest of the modules are still ok!

After school, headed for culinary meeting... as usual joke with some of them. talk abt xmas stuff and so on.. tml should be helping out abit in culinary stuff... talk abt 16th dec.. RP's family day for staff.. should be helping out as well.. * I wanna clear my ce points!*

After meeting ended, headed to CWP for dinner with some of the IG ppl.. KFC again. while I just had it on sunday.. then went to cold storage to accompany them to get their food stuff for tml while waiting for justina. Reach home around 9+ PM.zzz. think this is one of the latest time I reach home.. >______<

2008-12-01T20:44:00.000+08:00

This is what security camera's are for....

To take class pics =X

2008-11-29T19:05:00.001+08:00

I got my external hdd today!

WD 250gb for $109.99 and its white!!!

yay!

Gratz to yanling for getting her new lappy as well!

2008-11-27T23:15:00.002+08:00

Met up with Yanling today after school.
Pizza Hut for dinner..
After that headed expo for Sitex at Expo...
Thinking should I buy the external hdd...
Oh..and I saw Yong Sheng at the expo too.. hahahaa..

Maxtor 160gb $79
SeaGate 250gb $ 129!
which should I buy!?

2008-11-23T20:36:00.000+08:00

My new pet in facebook =X

2008-11-21T08:26:00.004+08:00

why is it that it seems every decision I made seems to be a wrong one.
fcuk.
everything just don't go the way I wanted it to be.
Be it going to school or ponning school,
someone would just be unhappy at the decision I made.
when I decide to come to school, someone would be unhappy.
when I decide to pon school, someone would also be unhappy.
what decisions can I even decide for myself so that there would not be any arguements or wadsoever.

everything just seems to be my fault,
even when I'm just keeping quiet early in the morning cause I'm like damm tired.
or even when I cant accomadate friends request
or whatever friendship problem I faced but like the opposite party just don't bother listening to my explanation.

and to add on, stress in my own problems.
school work, relationships,friendships,etc.
I need a break from all these.
why is there, no one to even understand me.
sigh.

2008-11-19T20:17:00.004+08:00

Old school biscuit
Bought this in school today..
I remembered it used to be my all-time favourite since I don't really like to eat biscuit besides cookies from Famous Amos..
I remembered that when I got bored of it, I would just eat the icing and totally ignored the biscuit base..

And not to forget, when I was young, I picked only the Pink ones..
now, I picked the white ones.. =X
Thus when felicia brought it to class in sem 1,
her white icing biscuits always gone missing :P

childhood reminiscence

2008-11-18T21:15:00.002+08:00

Module selection briefing today.

I cant afford to fail my science module for year 1. if not... *grumbles* I have to REPEAT 1 semester after YEAR 3!

@#$%^&@#$%^&*&^%$#@#$%^&*I

Intially I thought the most was just to retake it the most if I have to - in year 2. since year 2 and 3 is a 4 day week in school...BUT...

This diploma course is a 5 day week curriculum!

so hopefully, I won't have to retake my science module even though I have lots of D grades from this faci. argh!

year 2 gonna be a busy one... when, I haven cleared my CE points. Still have to do PP for year 2.. including going back for 2 workshops during the feb holiday
- grooming workshop
- makeup workshop

the confirm 5 modules I'm taking. ( module selection arent module selection for me since its all pre-selected)

-Customer Relationship Management
-Hotel and Hospitality Operations
-Marketing
-Hospitality and Tourism Management
-Culinary Science and Kitchen Operations

Uts are screwing me up like crazy!!!

2008-11-17T22:39:00.002+08:00

I thought today would turn out fine since we had our fun at causeway point.

But I guess just because of this, I reach my limits.
The way you question me 1 simple thing, was like Interrogating me like no one's business.
I'm sick of all those distrust and quarrels.
seriously.

2008-11-16T16:23:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, went over to expo with him for food fair. a wrong wrong choice to go.. cause its pack like sardines + most of the food are the commons one available in night market..

After that headed to meet up with si jie, esmond and jun liang before heading to RP for Reflections- Artistic Tapestry. We were late =X

The performance was really nice. Especially the chinese drumers part. and we met up with Justina slightly after her CO performance. While she received a sunflower from Samatha ( I didnt even notice samatha was there..haha), esmond and sijie went to give her..the potted plant from trcc =X

After performance, headed to woodland inter and crack lots of jokes over there.. with.. a few more scandals for Jun liang =X went over to Petal mac (without esmond, cause he left home 1st). we nearly bought happy meals for them! hahaha!

reach home nearly to 1am.. but yesterday was really a fun day spend with them!

2008-11-14T21:10:00.003+08:00

Nearly died off in class today due to stomach problem.
I kept complaining to him I want to go home halfway during break 2.
Don't even have much energy to walk during break 2 till all the way after school.
Got so lazy to do my RJ too..
So he did it for me =X
thankss!!

After hearing from friends about the module selection briefing, since my briefing will only be on next week. I decide not to retake my science if I score a D or D+. the only thing I hope now, is only to get at least maximum a D And not grade E and below.zzz.

85 for dinner with him..and headed back home after that.

2008-11-12T21:58:00.002+08:00

Mood wasn't that good in class for today, for whatever reasons.

I simply hate science to the core now.
I know at this grade I have now, its a comfirm case to retake this module even in year 2.
But I decided not to, provided its compulsory.
I don't bother if it pulls down my GPA.
I'll just try to work harder on other modules.

Damm it.
9 problems..I have 5 grade 'D' from this faci. argh!
Just because I couldnt answer her question she give me a D!
wth!

My mood just got so bad in the afternoon until I have no mood for anything else.
Until he have to say..he gonna bring me go shopping for a bag next time we go out to appease me. I feel so sorry about that..bleah

After school headed night market for a while and headed back with him and Jun Liang. talk about flatten candy floss...haha.

2008-11-10T20:37:00.005+08:00

Days seem to pass so slowly. Its only the 9th week of school. And I can't wait for the 13th week till the next holiday.

Internet has finally been up after so long but the connection is worst than the previous modem I had. screw MIO!

Days have been hectic I thought. Since RP is almost 9-5pm. Don't even have much time for myself. Pass few days have been having bad headaches till I'm like half dead at home. And to add on, earlier in the afternoon, my vision suddenly became blurred. I'm just lucky it got pretty back to normal after awhile.

Back to school tml after I skipped school today for the singtel person to come...

2008-11-07T10:43:00.004+08:00

Dead for UTs.

I think at the rate my science daily grade is, Im gonna retake science module. haiz.

I realise, no internet at home = spending more time with family.
Since the whole family would just gather around the living room to watch tv...

Been very tired recently.. and the week just seems to past so quickly.

2008-11-03T12:07:00.011+08:00

Minds cafe trip with Esmond, Justina and Si Jie on thursday.

Headed down TM with Justina for lunch, walked around. and headed TP. met up with Esmond there and continued waiting for Si Jie. And.. we just walked till we got nearly lost in TP.zzz.

Train down with them to Bugis. Headed Minds Cafe. Played board games till 9pm.. lots of jokes there. haha... some of the pics are below..didnt upload all. and. the 1st pic starts from the bottom because I uploaded in the wrong direction

His ice cream while going back home.

The game of ugly doll

The game of taboo~

Esmond claim his hot!

while others state A for angelfish, I state L for Luo han =X

the very lame game.

Cupboard full of games..

game of stacko

Next update when my house internet is ok..

Happy birthday to all november babies!

2008-11-03T08:51:00.004+08:00

blogging in school now.

house modem is spoilt.. thus internet is down at home. for this whole week.. I have no internet acess at home until the singtel person come and fix it next monday.argh..

2008-10-29T00:11:00.003+08:00

Didnt went to IG retreat today. Since was feeling not quite well in the morning. *ok..I know its just an excuse, since me and jessie decide to pon it yesterday night.* haha.. but its true that my temperature did went up this morning.zz.

Mac for breakfast with him. then went to his house use his laptop since internet in my house was down for the whole morning and afternoon. Headed to Justina's place after that. Lunch at the coffeeshop with justina and him. Played Yang Qin and Piano in her place.. she taught me.. beauty and the beast songs.. haha! which I forgotten how to play already. and that piece is just grade 1. while he can play ' Pu Gong Ying De Yue Ding' for like 3 verse.. I can only play it for a few notes and I forgot the whole thing.zz.

Decide to play Scramble. And we came up with all those singlish words which was rejected by any of us. haha. Egs are.. SOS, CIP, ERP, blablabla. you know when scramble words are linked down. we have totally no idea what word to put already. Since we even took out Justina's dictionary to check what words to use.. even came up with this XSNR. which we named it.. - Extra Small And Regular.zzz! skipped scramble and played Monopoly instead! Its not fun at all! no houses and hotels to build because he spoil the market by buying part of every estate! and he turns out to be the ultimate winner.zz.

went 85 for dinner after that.. the usual stuff. PS to Junliang~ because 9 is quite late for most of us. stingray,sugar cane drink,satays,chicken wings.. lots of random jokes after that. and guess what..

HE SAYS.. ON MY 18TH BDAY.. HE WILL JUST GIVE ME 85 BA CHOR MEE WITH 18 MEATBALLS. zzzz. I rather he give me IKEA meatballs.. -_________-

I wanna go either Mind Cafe/ Pit Stop Cafe!!! anyone wanna go!?

2008-10-27T20:46:00.002+08:00

Out with yanling today, the usual place, the usual lunch.

Lunch at eunos inter.. having the bento. after that, went of to bugis, suntec and marina square. For such a long time..its the 1st time I bought nothing besides food stuff in any of the 3 malls.zzz. bought ice cream from bugis. and Carl's JR fries from marina square.. the result of being broke =.= I wanna buy shades! though I don't know I wanna buy for wad.. blahs..

Was talking about the recent rising cost of poly students. and we talked about the bus fare for it.. though there was a petition few years back. received an email on this.

http://www.petitiononline.com/polybus/

Kind of agree that bus fare is being way too ex.. especially when Im using concession. don't know if this petition do helps. though I doubt it will.. but just give out a try? haha. I wonder how to survive without getting a part time job. bleh.

1 week allowance -> $60
1 month -> $240.
concession fare + mrt fare -> $52 + $20 = 72
total spend per month -> $312

and parents have to spend like minimum $300+ on me each mth.. argh. seriously, no $$. I don't even want to ask them for extra allowance since they arent earning much also. + still have my younger bro to support. haiz..

2008-10-25T23:01:00.003+08:00

Last minute decision to IKEA yesterday after school with him and justina. Had chicken wings and hot dog bread there. =X at night.. seriously bad flu..argh!

Went to bedok inter to take e hoodie today. finally came after 2 weeks.zz. Lunch at botak Jones with him. the quantity for me is way too much.. he ended up eating half of my fish and chips for me =X. but wasnt that feeling well after I reach home. weather was super hot until I feel like fainting!!

2008-10-23T22:30:00.003+08:00

Didnt went to school today.. coz Im too tired.. and lazy.. feli was saying.. me and my logics.. haha. tml is the last lesson before 1 week of holiday.. breakfast for mac. after that went his hse. Tried the Bacardi Breezer. And my face just turn slight pink after drinking for a while.zzz.

Headed tamp after that. lunch was KFC.. having all the fastfood.zz. walk around for just a little while and received a call from yanling. Rushed down to TP after that. Yanling~~ do hope you manage to find your laptop..

went back with him from TP at around 6plus..

2008-10-22T22:23:00.004+08:00

Lunch at Cafe Galilee with felicia today. Look how clumsy she is.. haha. she broke her fork while having her fish and chips!!!

Received an email.. to notify that I receive the GV vouchers since only 20 people was pick from doing the survey.. hehe. at least something nice from RP after so long. -___-

Im bored of getting D grades from science faci.. argh! I don't feel like going to school!